Welcome, 2020! It’s one week into the new year and 2020 is already off to quite a start. I started off the new year worshipping with Hillsong alongside 65,000 other 18-25-year-olds at Passion. It was quite the way to countdown to midnight! It was a great event that got me pumped up for everything God has in store for this year.
Honestly, I’m not one for New Year’s Resolutions. They’re these goals we all feel really inspired to set when the new year starts, but then forget about when things get busy. You know the usual: lose weight, eat healthier, study more, de-clutter, etc. It’s easy in this season of rest and celebration to come up with all these crazy ideas about how we can change ourselves within the next year. Do we really mean them though? That’s why this year I’m choosing a word, not a resolution.
“Dream” is a big word that can be taken in several ways. It can be where your mind wanders when you sleep, your wildest imaginations for yourself, or a fantasy narrative you’re writing in your head. For those of us who love Disney, it’s a word that comes up a lot. It’s featured in movies, songs, pieces of art, and everything that Walt Disney created. He was working on a dream! For me, I want to allow myself to dream more often.
Now, I’m not talking about sleep kind. I barely remember my sleep dreams anyway and I don’t think there’s any fixing that. For me, I’m focusing on the dreams for my future. 2019 was a big year that opened a lot of doors. I did more things than I ever thought possible. I stepped out of my comfort zone and it paid off in ways that I could have ever imagined.
In the past, I’ve not been confident or brave enough to dream big for myself. I had dreams that I let the world crash down out of anxiety and fear of failure. I’m a perfectionist who never wanted to let anyone down. It was safer to go above and beyond in my comfort zone and not branch out into new things. I let go of so much, and I’m done doing that.
2020 has so many opportunities in store for me to dream big. I’ll be graduating with my B.S. in Media & Communication and starting my “real adult” life! There are so many exciting opportunities that come with that. A lot of them are utterly terrifying to think too deeply about, but that’s exactly why I want to let my dreams crush my fears. I need to be confident in myself and my God that I am capable of doing amazing things. I can dream big because I believe in a God that is able to do BIG things. I need to dream big and believe that those dreams can come true. I have the opportunity to impact the world (wherever God may place me) in such a huge way, and I need to remind myself of that and not let anxiety and panic slow me down.
Although I’m not the biggest fan of new years resolutions, I do want to set a few goals for myself this year.
- Get outside more. As a media major and someone who spends the majority of the workday staring at a screen, it could do my body some good to get out every once and a while. I loved working outside when I was at Disney (and all the freckles and tan from that Florida sun) and want to re-engage that. It can be really easy for me to hide inside and not see the sun. Gotta get those vitamins!
- Try out intermittent fasting. I’m not one for diet fads, but this one seems legit. Despite helping with weight loss, I’ve read that intermittent fasting can help with my insulin resistance and PCOS problems. Lord knows I need all the help I can get with keeping my insulin down and other PCOS symptoms maintained. As I continue getting older, I need to make sure I’m taking care of my body the best way possible! I’ll be trying the 16/8 method of 16 hours fasting and 8 hours eating. We’ll see how that goes!
- Look more into becoming a pescatarian/vegetarian. For 2019, one of my goals was to stop eating beef. I’m happy to say I managed to keep that up! The impacts the beef industry has on our planet and the effects beef has on my body just weren’t worth it to me. I don’t even really miss it! Coming from someone who used to eat steak every weekend, this was a major change. Now I look at beef and kind of feel disgusted.
- Get a better sense of what exactly it is that I want to do with my career. My major is somewhat broad which leaves more room for me to find my niche. Whether it’s an event planning, copywriting, designing, or account management – advertising and public relations allow for many opportunities! I held an account management position last semester that I really enjoyed, so hopefully this semester I can solidify what the right track is for me.
- Realize some people and relationships are better left in the past. This is gonna be a tough one. I really like maintaining long-term friendships. I put a lot of value into relationships with others and time spent together. However, this becomes a problem when I can’t let go of toxicity. My top trait is “developer” so I always see how people can be better and want them to achieve that, but sometimes I just can’t be the person that helps. As much as it sucks, some people need to be left in the past. I’ll always be open to them when needed, but I can’t obsess over hoping things will get better and get hurt in the process. If I keep feeding into things that don’t energize me back, then I’m gonna smack into a wall.
I know 2020 seems to be off on a crazy start in this world. However, I believe God is going to do big things. Each new conflict is sparking something new that needs to happen. I’m keeping positive that 2020 is going to be a big year in good ways! Here’s to this new year and wishing you the best start!
❤ / Bailey