When Trying Hard Fails.

It all started lasted Wednesday. I took my mom to the doctor because she was super dizzy and couldn’t drive herself, and the doctor diagnosed her with the flu. I brought her home and immediately went straight to Target to buy three tubs of disinfectant wipes, a huge can of Lysol disinfectant spray, two tubs of hand sanitizer, adult immune system gummy vitamins, and  anything else I could possibly think of to protect myself from getting sick. I was trying my absolute hardest to not get ill in any way!

It seemed to be going okay until Friday night when I started to get a cough and hadn’t slept the night before. I went to work on Saturday for my nine hour shift feeling like absolute crap but knowing I would have to power through it because they needed me due to being short staffed on a busy weekend. I brought a giant cup of water, box of tissues, and huge bag of cough drops with me and began my day as a style specialist.


Accurate representation of what it feels like to have the flu! (from pinterest.com)

To be completely honest I think going to my long shift is actually what did me in. Rather than being smart and calling in sick when I actually did feel like crap I decided to tough it out and I nearly worked myself to exhaustion. When I got home I could barely drag myself up the stairs and flopped in to bed. I decided it might be a good idea to take my temperature and low and behold it was 101 degrees. I finally realized it might be time for me to focus on myself and my health rather than worrying about others and the things I had to get done. I went to Urgent Care yesterday, Sunday, and was tested positive for type A flu. Now I am quarantined until Friday at the earliest which isn’t ideal because I am a social person who gets energy from being around people.


I have realized though that I am custom to pushing myself way too hard sometimes. I am someone who typically puts the needs and expectations of others above my own and I am beginning to realize that could have a serious down side. It is good that I give everything my all and want to help everyone to the best of my ability but I definitely need to step back  when I feel overwhelmed and either ask for a break or ask for some help! Trying really hard is something I consider to be a positive trait until it runs you down; I can’t be helpful or useful when I have completely run myself down! I tend to burn myself out and this time my consequence happened to be the flu. I’m staying positive knowing that I now have some time to rest and focus on my health and getting back to normal.

Hopefully none of you all are sick because this is absolutely horrible! I can’t hear very well because my ears are clogged, I haven’t slept in four days because I can’t breathe, and my cough is gnarly. I don’t want anyone else to experience this and I am sorry if you are! Hope you all had a great Monday & enjoy the last few days of February!! This post took me way too long. Having the flu makes blogging very difficult so I’m gonna go lay down now.



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